Day 2: Cardio X

If P90X doesn't kill me then it will make me stronger.  But oh, man...does it ever feel like it's going to kill me.  

I went out tonight for a Pampered Chef party.  I knew I'd be cutting it close to get home at a decent time and get my work out in and I was right.  I actually stayed a little too late.  I left there with my head in super motivation mode, "I'm still going to do my workout when I go home". It's kind of too bad that Keely didn't really understand the motivation in my head as she cried most of the way home and also continued crying once I got her inside.  She chose the time I needed to focus and buckle down to be inconsolable. 

At this point the "old me" would have said to myself "You can just do this work out in the morning and the other one in the evening, no big deal" or "What's it going to hurt to miss one? You have a screaming baby".  But here it is, after midnight and I can absolutely tell you that I DID my workout.  My body didn't want to, my baby didn't want to, but I did it. Saying it was easy would be a gross misconception because I really did not under any circumstances want to change into workout clothes and jump around my living room for an hour.  Not to mention I feel incredibly silly since I've never done most of these moves before in my life.  I could probably audition for a circus side show act doing any P90X workout and get a job where people would point and laugh, except I dont' think they're ready for this jelly.  Like, literally... Jello belly shaking like Shakira. So. Not. Pretty.  

But that's the whole point of this, isn't it? It's to get past the awkwardness, improve my form, improve my reps and my endurance and get rid of the jiggle in my wiggle. 

Tomorrow I will try and find time to sit down and post my before pictures and measurements.  Be warned, it's not pretty.  I've had 4 children (that includes a twin pregnancy) and a c-section.  Things are stretched out and sagging, but I know that if I prove I can do this, someone, somewhere will realize that they can do it too.  Taking the first step to a healthier lifestyle is hard.  Continuing to move forward and push through your difficulties is even harder.  Mind over matter people.  Stop telling yourself you don't have enough time, you can't do those moves, you can't bend that way.  Just try it. And then try it again.  As Tony Horton (creator of P90X) says: 

Do NOT say you “can’t”! You can say, “I don’t want to”. You can say, “I’m not willing to put forth the effort”. But DO NOT say you CAN’T!